The longest days and yet time goes fast. I can´t even describe how worn out I am from this condition, can´t even seem to find an answer, It´s like having a bad day after another and still expecting the next one to be different. Been probably doing everything wrong. but there is a knot in my stomach and I cannot make it go away. I´ve tried everything I know of, and it does not go away. I am tired, hopeless sometimes. That is the word, hopelessness. I´ve been to many countries in the last years, I´ve taken many chances and yet, the night seems like another whole world, one with anxiety and night terrors, and the day is where my back hurts, my stomach hurts, and I can´t get passed it. I been doing it all wrong, but I don´t know any other way.
