Looking at the glass half full (or how I learned to deal with akwardness).

After a few days here in California I realized how much things have changed these late years and how much I have changed myself. It has been hard to re-connect with a part of the family, since I need somehow to find a way to struggle with the image they have made of me in their minds, from other people's words, or their own ideas, so it feels like I have to struggle everyday to let them know just a little bit of who I really am, or who I am not. And I made a choice not to, just because, I do not let it bother me anymore, as it did in the past.
I know myself, I know where I am going, and I like it. That should be enough, and it is.
I made peace with that feeling of being misunderstood, underestimated, and sometimes even look down on.
I went to Vegas for the third time now and it helped me realize how we should enjoy life regardless of any circumstance, even this terrible back pain that has brought me so much suffering, which I will refer to some other day. Still, I tried to look at the glass half full, and appreciate things and moments as they occur.

I do not know how life will be from now on, but I know it has to get better, for I have been learning, healing, facing, cleansing and completing. I have two beautiful new nephews, I can walk again, I am working in my solo album, I still have my band, I have very few but great friends, I have plans and I have the best mother I could ever ask for. So, what if everything else is broken?

TO ENJOY VACATION DO AS FOLLOW:

1.leave problems at home.
2. miss but do not suffer.
3. no anxiety.
4.no regrets.
5. don't show your Achilles heel to strangers.
6. do not feel like a misfit.
7. pretend to like everyone you meet.
8. wear a smile to every picture because you need to show them back home.
9. find a summer love.

Results so far:
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Listening to: Sufjan Stevens_I want to be well